I was laying on the floor playing with Emmett tonight and in my head I’m running down the laundry list of things I need to get done before bed and then stressing because it was already seven and we hadn’t even eaten dinner yet. In the midst of all that mess, it hit me, I am not living in the moment, I am not taking the time to enjoy my son as he is right now. I am constantly thinking ahead to what I’m going to do next, never spending time enjoying what is actually going on around me. I’m beginning to think that one of the biggest sources of my depression is not actually ‘living’ and just coasting through. Trying to figure out how I am going to get to everything else.
Constantly focusing on what you are not doing would bring anyone down. So I need to look at it as, I am playing with Emmett, he is one of my favorite people in the whole wide world, the (cleaning, laundry, dishes, etc.) don’t matter, he DOES. What could possibly mean more than time with him? In my effort to get happier this year, I want to learn how to live in the moment. To feel live, think and breathe each second as it is happening.
I’m looking for input on how you stay centered and focused on what is going on around you at that exact moment because I just do not know how to do this yet.
Please feel free to share ANY advice you might have that you think might help! I am open to all opinions!